The start of a new week

Good Morning,

This is the pool at the Getty Museum in Malibu. Mari and I went on a field trip a couple of years ago. Rory used to work there and I can remember when they were closing this part down, they had a party for the employees and there were employees playing in the pool.

I am reading a book on Freelance Writing. What I would really like to do is be able to explore, take pictures and write about where I explore. I am starting a new schedule. The morning will be house stuff and writing and the afternoon, will be my lunch, my nap and photography and finishing whatever I don't get done in the morning.

Yesterday did turn into a rest day and today everybody except me will be at school or work. Yea! I will get some alone time. Mari and I did have some fun taking pictures in Modjeska Canyon, which is near me. Modjeska is its on little community.

Better get moving. Trudi

This is the day the Lord has made

Good Morning,

The heat is making me exhausted. I am planning to stay around the house, with the exception of one errand and some picture taking.

I am wrestling in my head regarding someone I just met. She wants to get together today, so we can get to know each other better, but I just need a down day. I have to set boundaries. We talked yesterday, but I feel when someone calls you, the person you are calling should have your full attention and I did not feel I had that attention. She asked me to call her before I went to bed last night, which I did and she asked me to call back in about 5 minutes. I was very tired last night and I wanted to do my Bible reading and just wind down for the night. I told her I would call her today and maybe we would get together. I really need a down day before I start the week. Am I being selfish?

I did go to church yesterday and I am very glad I did. The message was good. I wish Pastor Rick had been there, but Pastor Tom did a good message. I have to remember that the people who put me down are humans and are not perfect. I really need to remember that God is walking through life with me and He loves me just the way I am.

Get some rest and spend time with God. Trudi

It's HOT!

Good Morning,

Another "wonderful" hot day in store, oh joy, oh joy!

I am making the commitment to go to church every Saturday at 4:30, except when certain commitments get in the way, like next week, when it will be my daughters 21st b-day. I also looked into getting into a small group on Wednesday and I think I have found a group that will work.

I want to have friends, who I don't want to fix, but just be friends, but I don't know if I really know how to have a relationship without control or wanting to fix. If you want to be a friend and help me to learn how to have a real friendship. I want to be supportive, but I don't want to fix or control.

Someone pointed out to me yesterday, after I was talking about my photography class, that I need to have fun with the class and I don't have to be perfect with it. I need to really learn that I am not perfect and I don't have any control over anything.

Today is marketing day and I want to get things done before it gets too hot. I just want my friends to know, I am praying for them. Anyone want to join me at the 4:30 service today.

Trudi

It's Friday

Good Morning,

Yesterday was a busy day. Rory had dental work and I had to take him and pick him up. The windows in my car have been acting up. Wednesday, they didn't work and yesterday, they did. Mari and I had our first photography class. I felt tired and mush-brain after I walked out of the class. I am having to step out of my comfort zone, but I guess that is what I need to do to learn.

I had counseling last night. I was not being open before, as I don't think my counselor understands what it is like to live with an Aspie. She wants me to become close to Rory and I do not know if I can do this. Anyway, we talked about getting me back to going to church, which I am going to do on Saturday. Getting into a small group for the new study that is coming up in the fall. I need to release control and let God be in control.

Today is going to be relaxed. Rory has to go to Torrance to meet with our attorney for the trust. Mari needs to go to Joanne's. Marissa wants to see Halloween II. Not exactly something I want to see.

I need to get moving with my day. Take pictures, make a menu and list for marketing.

A new day, a new class

Good Morning all,

Mari and I start our photography class today. It has been a busy week. Rory is having some dental work done this morning.

I went to mid week share for CR last night. Something that has been hitting me is that I have close friends and I have people who are acquaintances or who I know, but I am not close to. It is still hard for me to get close to people for fear of getting hurt. I am also working on grief. I don't know that I have worked through the death of my dad, who I was very close to, or the feelings I have about the lack of relationship I have with my husband. Lately, I have had a couple of people, who I feel are close friends move away. I struggle with letting my daughters go and live their own lives. The three of us are close. I know I can still talk to the two people who have moved away, but I guess I feel numb about them leaving. I don't know that I really know what I do feel. I know I really enjoy taking pictures and I enjoy exploring and learning new places and new things. Still need to process these things. I have counseling tonight, so will have to go over this with her.

Enjoy your day and make time for God. Trudi

Cleaning Day

Good Morning,

It has been a busy week. The girls got to school on Monday and I ran some errands and made an appointment to have someone come out and fix our stove. Rory went to work, so I actually had some alone time in the house. YEA! The rest of the day was working through my list and that night was CR. Yesterday Janean came over and we worked on my photos. The man came over and fixed the stove, which took about 5 minutes. If it happens again, I know how to fix it. Last night, Mari started her French class and Marissa and I started a travel class. Marissa and I went to London in 3 hours. I am looking forward to the photography class on Thursday. Our cleaning people come today. My friend, Kare, leaves for Utah today. She is so in my prayers and I know this is the right decision.

The other night, I found out that another friend has been diagnosed with MS. She is in my prayers as well.

Another busy day! Trudi

A new week, a new schedule and a new semester

Good Morning,

It is the start to a new semester, which means a new schedule and speaking of which, I had better get going.

This is the day that the Lord has made

Good Morning,

As I was doing my morning quiet time, two scriptures came to mind, Phillipians 4:6-7, says that we are not to be anxious about anything, but be in prayer and thanksgiving and present your request to God and we will have the peace of God, which will guard your hearts and minds. The other verse was in Phllipians 4:13, which says that I can do everything through Him, who gives me strength.

I need to remember this in my new adventure with finding what I should be doing. Last night, I had a heated discussion with Rory. He wants to hire a personal assistant to do everything for him, as if we can afford it. I am his personal assistant. I have to accept that he is not motivated to do anything, except sit around and watch TV and go out and have a good time. He really does not want to work. I am angry, because I wanted him to be like my dad and have some motivation and be a couple who is in this life 50-50. I need to accept that it is not going to be this way. I need to accept that we have the money for me to stay home, as right now I do not think I have the energy to have a paying job and take on anything more. I am going to enjoy my girls and my new found interest in photography. Thank you Janean for all your help.

Off to enjoy the day. Trudi

TGIF

Good Morning, it is Saturday.

Rory had a doctor's appt. yesterday, which took most of the morning. Found out that Mari was not approved for health insurance, as she is on an anti-depressant and her weight is too much. Time to work on really losing weight. Any suggestions, other than the normal weight loss programs. We want to work on losing weight the healthy way. Spent the majority of time at home in the morning. Got lunch at Olamendi's. My usual nap. Ran errands; which included the movie theater to get Marissa's check, Mari's work to get her schedule, Joanne's to get some material. While the girls were getting material, I picked up Rory from the mechanic and took him home. Came back and picked up the girls and went to get my new glasses, then to the store to get dinner and then to the bookstore to try to get our text books. CR was last night. A busy day.

Today is marketing day and getting Rory's car back from the mechanic. Car's are so expensive and so much fun. But what would we do without them. I plan to go to church tonight.

Better get going on a menu and marketing list. Enjoy the day.

A new day

The girls and I went to see "Julie and Julia" I loved it. There is a part in the movie where Julia Childs is trying to figure out what she is doing with her life. I could so relate. I am so enjoying do photography. I will see where the idea of writing goes.

I got my hair done yesterday and Chris tried a new style.

I am not sure what we are doing today, except that two of us are going to CR tonight. We do need to go back to the bookstore today and get one last book that they did not have last Monday. I just found out that Rory's car is going into the shop, as his check engine light went on. He told me that yesterday he went to Palm Springs. He has been having problems with his a/c.

Went to counseling last night, which went well. I deal with control and lack of trust. I just have to trust in God and know that He is in control.

Off to see where today takes us. Trudi

Oh good, I get to have my hair done today. This afternoon, the girls and I are going to see "Julie and Julia". After that we will get Mari's schedule and then to Joanne's to get somethings so Mari can sew. Tonight is counseling.