Sunday, September 13, 2009

Down in the dumps

Good Morning, I guess. It is a new day and I have my health and my family and my home and I do not have to work for a living. I have many things to be thankful for.
Yesterday was a good day, but I feel like I pushed Mari too much. I really feel like I backslid with my codependency. I want to take pictures, but I want them perfect. I am also selfish, as I want to do what I want to do or take pictures of what I want to take pictures of. I feel I am not happy with anything. Rory wants me to take care of him and I want somebody to take care of me. I know God is doing that and I do see it, but I am tired of the one doing everything and everyone else is happy and I am not happy with anything. I feel like I would rather live by myself, then I would still be unhappy.
On to other things. Today, I start the PICS ministry. I am not sure where that is going to go, but we will see. The rest of the day is open.